| good night, sweet girl. |
[31 May 2006|02:14pm] |
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how does life go on after everything you know is going or gone?
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| im getting over you. |
[06 Mar 2006|09:56pm] |
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acceptance. |
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im currently in the business of shopping for a distration...
any offers or suggestions?
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| God put a smile on your face |
[29 Jan 2006|11:20am] |
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coldplay. |
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i hate school.
i hate waiting to figure out whats gunna happen.
not talking about colleges.
gahhh sundays are a killer.
[put one on mine.]
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| God put a smile on your face |
[29 Jan 2006|11:20am] |
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anxious |
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music |
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coldplay. |
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i hate school.
i hate waiting to figure out whats gunna happen.
not talking about colleges.
gahhh sundays are a killer.
[put one on mine.]
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[20 Nov 2005|01:18pm] |
i love my friends that visit me when im stuck at home on a sunday night.
and amanda... shes pretty rad too.
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| Meet Me in Montauk |
[08 Nov 2005|09:26pm] |
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circa survive |
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not that anyone cares, cuz no one reads this...
buuut im finding out who are my real friends now and who are my sham friends. it makes happy.
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| Everything... I... everything I. |
[06 Nov 2005|03:54pm] |
i love this song so ima make you read the lyrics... theyre good so dont complain.
The Honorary Title - "Everything I Once Had"
Everything I,
You were everything I once had,
The bar on First Avenue,
We went there solely for you,
So you can flirt with my best friend,
Kiss a girl, tell me why you're laughing.
I won't hold, I can’t hold on to this,
There's a hole in the trust that we mapped out,
In my bed for six long months,
There's a hole in the trust that we mapped out,
In my bed for six long months,
For six long months,
Well I won’t hold on to this.
February, Valentine's Day,
Did my best to avoid the red clichés,
So you dumped me on the subway,
on my way to work at nine in the morning,
Everybody else is holding bouquets,
Now I’m holding my face in the basement,
Scratching away for any trace,
Of affection you will leave,
Falling victim to the public's prey.
Well I won't hold,
No I can’t hold on,
I won’t hold on to this.
There's a hole in the trust that we mapped out,
In my bed for six long months,
There's a hole in the trust that we mapped out,
In my bed,
There's a hole in the trust that we mapped out,
In my bed for six long months.
I won’t hold on to this.
Anyone is suitable for you, I, for you I guess, tonight,
Anyone is suitable for you, I guess,
You were a phase,
It's over with,
You my beautiful,
You were a phase,
It's over with, you my beautiful,
With your beautiful blue and white,
Your beautiful blue and white.
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| when youre wounded. |
[22 Sep 2005|07:26pm] |
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my fav band, if you dont know it, die. |
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sooo lemme get this straight. whenever i say, "i think ima get rid of this lj", you all bitch and whine and go NOOO DONT DO THAT, but then when i post something, you guys dont comment or anything... except for caitlin cuz shes the coolest. so basically what im saying is... you all blow.
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| its the pain and the sex, disguised as innocence |
[15 Jul 2005|12:48am] |
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jamisonparker cd |
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Champions of the first Viva La Bam inspired Scavenger Hunt 2005
bringing in a stunning 850 points!
well tonight was amazingly fun. hands down the best scavenger hunt ever. youre all sitting there reading this being jealous.
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| the sun is always in my eyes. |
[04 Jul 2005|12:19am] |
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best song of all time, motorcycle drive by |
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1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When & how did we meet?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
15. Am I fun?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveble?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word?
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me?
22. Do you think ill get married?
23. What makes me happy?
24. What makes me sad?
25. If you could give me anything what would it be?
26. What reminds me of you?
28. When's the last time you saw me?
29. Do you think I could kill someone?
30. What will I be when I grow up?
What Would You do if..?
I cried:
I asked you to help:
I died from natural causes:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
I got dumped:
I pissed you off:
What Do You Think Of My..?
Personality:
Clothes:
Humor:
Choice of music:
laura HAS to do this. other people are strongly urged to.
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| Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh... |
[25 Jun 2005|04:24pm] |
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colplday |
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well kids that was fun
I have the sniffles. make them go away.
and i heart coldplay btw.
You and me are floating on a tidal wave...
Together
You and me are drifting into outer space...
And singing
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| so there you are.... |
[09 Jun 2005|01:58pm] |
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the academy is.... |
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FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, ITS MOTHERFUCKING SUMMER.
ok well i havent updated on things that ive actually done in a while. so yesterday, after school we hit the beach, then go back to colins and hang out and later at night we drive down to pv and look for this spot where we used to go down on the beach and i think we finally found it but it was like 11 so we couldnt really see shit. what an adventure for the first night of summer.
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| how long before i get in, before it starts, before i begin |
[05 Jun 2005|11:25am] |
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speedofsound by coldplay |
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3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days, 3 days!
please go by quickly.. please.
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| the safest youve ever been |
[01 Jun 2005|05:10pm] |
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eandi |
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checklist til summer.
-get through two more days of school, 8 class periods.
-SAT again on saturday
-finals next week
then summeerrrrr. ohh godd... only 5 days... almost there.
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[11 May 2005|04:28pm] |
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definitely a bad day.
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| i wanna hear you sayy i remember you |
[06 May 2005|10:09pm] |
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the ataris - i remember you |
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there is just definitely something amazing about spending your night with lauren and amanda at the beach and then overlooking the city listening to the ataris. its just indescribable.
"these are the nights that make me never wanna grow up"
Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and I'd think of you
And all the tears you cried, that called my name
And when you needed me I came through
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| you look so far removed |
[01 May 2005|11:58am] |
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 indescribable |
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the format |
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so basically i havent done this in a while, cuz i just dont care anymore. this week is going to suck ass tho. but once its over im in the home stretch and soon enough, soon enough summer will be here, and then.. life will be awesome. i really have nothing else to say
ps. some people are retarded and enjoy making asses of themselves. and dont im me saying ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT ME, cuz this goes for more than one person.
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| when will you grow up? |
[04 Apr 2005|02:55pm] |
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the bravery |
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all in one night you let me see all your flaws
im happy spring break is over, i mean yeah sure school sucks but spring break was pure crap. but yeah lets just truck on for another two months and be done with school already. wellllll i think i feel better now. thanks to some people especially, you know who you are.
ummm so yeah i have more to say but ill save it for another time.
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| but right now everything is wrong |
[01 Apr 2005|10:52am] |
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oc soundtrack mix 1 |
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so i know what youre thinking. another rant. and yes thats what this is. so you have been warned and if you dont wanna read this or dont care then dont. but this is the only way i really know how im feeling and to express it.
so yeah everyday i wake up feeling like im gunna seriously vomit. its hard to eat when youre like that cuz well you feel sick and you dont wanna eat. but then it gets worse as the day goes on cuz you obviously havent eaten. so ive prolly lost some weight. as for sleep usuually i go to sleep between like 12 and 2 and wake up at like 11 or so but the latest ive woken up this last week is like 9. and so im usually tired. during the day ive done absolutely nothing and im never content with that. but then i never wanna do anything. its confusing, but i end up sitting on my ass the whole day thinking about how much i hate life and how school is coming back soon. but yoiu know what. i think ima actually try kinda hard when i get back, cuz i mean i dont really have any distractions now and i might as well get something good out of this. itll also take my mind off shit. but yeah i have nothing to look forward to anymore. ima go to school 5 days a week. do nothing during the week cuz i now have nothing to do during the week. go out on friday and saturday night. maybe if im lucky have fun one of those nights. and thatll be life til summer. so you tell me what the fuck do i have to look forward to anymore. man like the sunday before easter and those last two days before break i was on top of the fucking world. i was like man this is it. this is what lifes about. sure not everything was perfect, but hell when is it ever, i thought things finally are starting to look up for me. but of course god hates me. so like now im feeling prolly as bad as ive felt in a long as time. and the worst part is that it just wont go away. and im like always feeling like this. maybe a couple hours of the day ill feel ok. but for the majority of the deal i could die. but the absolute worst part is that i dont even know what it would take to make me feel good again. right now i wait for every night to hope that something happens that will cheer me up. but nothing does, and i dont know what it will take to actually make me feel better, cuz i cant really think of anything. so if you can think of a way. be my guest. gimme a fone call, im me. just try something. i will be at least a little happy that you care and you tried.
btw congrats if you actually read this all.
When I am alone
When I’ve thrown off the weight of this crazy stone
When I've lost all care for the things I own
That's when I miss you, that's when I miss you, that's when I miss you
You are my home
You are my home
And here is what I know now
Here is what I know now
Goes like this..
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, in your love, in your love
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| if i die tomorrow... |
[31 Mar 2005|11:14am] |
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the ataris!!!!!!!!!!! |
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you know. with no disrespect at all. i wish girls were like dogs. dogs are always loyal. never jealous, and are always ready to show you their love for you. whether you just yelled at them for pissing on the carpet or hit them with a newspaper for eating up your hw, they always are ready to show you some affection or love. and tho they arent always perfect, theyll admit when theyve done wrong even tho it appears different cuz they run under the couch. dogs.... you gotta love em.
As I look out at these fairgrounds,
I remember how our family split apart.
I don't think I ever told you,
But I know you always did your best.
And the hard times,
They only made us stronger.
As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Sometimes we're helpless and alone,
But you can let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.
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